cuddles that get sexual then get sweet again
I’m too good of a person to continue to let you bring me down. I’ve stood by your side through all the bullshit, through the infidelity, through all the hurtful words you’ve said to me. I’ve opened my arms and my heart to you a million times, I’ve kept my word, my faith. My heart, not my body have ever lingered or gone astray. I’ve tried to trick myself into believing you love me, that you care about me, that 5 or 10 or 20 years from now you’re still going to be there, that you’ll still love me, that I’ll still be all you want, but deep down below the surface, I know it’s a facade. I know you’ve never wanted me for who I am. You’ve wanted to change me, to control me, to own me from day one, and I’ve let you, all this time. I’ve let you rule me, push me around and bully me into getting your way. I’ve let you take away each and every quirk that made me who I am. I’ve given up my future, my dreams, my aspirations, my goals, and myself to accommodate you. To make you happy and to make you want me, and it’s never been enough. The more I give the more you take. And every day I ask myself why I let this happen, why I let things get this bad, why I let you destroy so much of the happy person I used to be.
The fucked up part is that I know I did it because I wanted you. Because I love you. Because after all of the shit, I want to spend my life with you. Because you’re the only person I’ve ever wanted. Even though I know how shitty and awful you are, you’re all I want, and it makes me fucking sick. I love you, and I hate you, but I really fucking love you.
so yesterday i was in london and i tripped up at the tube station and was helped up by this guy so i told my friend
and just now my friend sent me a link to this craigslist ad
I AM IN DISBELIEF
Update: i have now procured a date